bad day ='(

5th day he left...
feel that more used to it le...
it---> the single life...
not like dun love him anymore...
is like, wont everyday wanna c him or stuff like tht le..
mayb lost the yi lai d..
although i still very miss him ='(
im useless right...

today,
work at mum's office for the whole day...
woke up at 1045...
rush for bath about 10min...
thn depart...
was really very tired..
as last nite din slp well also...
feel like wanna bang my head on the wall....
i thk i have a nightmare ytday nite..
coz im pretty sure tht i cried in the midnite..
bt about wat, really forget all jor le.. bluuu~~
its good maybe~hehe~

luckily mum's customer bought us some food at around 130pm..
starving tht time...
although the food abit arhem, bt it's still very nice to me d!
coz im very very hungry..
my very 1st meal T________T

feeling very faint for the whole day..
n like suddenly cold, suddenly hot..
bt i thk im nt fever yet..
fever is coming to visit me???
very tired n frustrated for the whole day....
bt wat to do..
still nid show the-fake-smile in front of ppl...
n summore, i need to climb up and down to open the door n close the door..very very very kek si..
n today, i fall down on the floor, leg black green n abit bleeding...
thn, tht s2pd kayu cucuk my hand...manage to take it out bt my hand bleed agn..
thn, accidently bite my lips, bleeding agn..
wth! what a stupid day....

finish the wth day,
back to home..packing things to take to new house...
n thn, i went to the kitchen..
almost fainted...
lots of dirty dishes n plastics on the basin...
n my maid is nt here!
so i need to do it all by myself...
im already so sick n i need to wash all these!!
wash everythg..
very-the-tired-to-the-max!

i dunwan this type life anymore...seriously...
wish to dig a hole n hide inside thr...
bt i noe it wont happen...
suan le...

now im thinking of...
after graduate le..
cincai find a ppl marry ki enuf le...
haix...
or move out, n stay in my very own house...
it can only be a small small room jau cn d...
all my stuff inside thr...can no nid clean up everything...
no nid do housecore...
pass the life tht i want...
perfect life huh~ hehe!
it cn be very messy, bt at least i comfortable v it enuf d...
hoho...
can call as gu po wu also la...
i also dunno wan hw le..

my mind is blur, heart is blur..
everything is blur..
i need someone, to cry on him/her...
pls.......
i need to fa xie badly...
thr's a lot pressure in my heart..
i cannot get over of it...
i cried every nite...
either in day, or nite...
n it seems like be more serious...
i cried in my dreams... while im sleeping...
i neeeeeddddddddddddd backup seriously...
i need my angel ='(
to save me.....

i know my life is perfect...
i got a nice family, a very love me geh bf...
bt, thr's a lot of pressure..
tht u guys duno..
im having in my heart...
some secret pressure..
or those i dun wish to tell...
S.O.S.....
haix...

im tired..
physically, n very tired mentally...